All better?

Well I am hoping that my problem has been solved and that Zach and I will be able to move on with our life. I went to the doctor last Thursday and they did an ultrasound and realized that we needed to try and take care of this problem through medicine. So I had this medicine that I was supposed to take ever 6 hours for a 24 hour period and then by Monday I would be all better and shouldn't have to worry about anything. Well Monday came and everything had still not taken care of itself so I called the nurses desk and told them the whole story and that my Dr. told me to call if I wasn't done bleeding. Well all the nurse had to say to me was "it is ok I would just wait it out and see if it takes care of itself." Are you serious??? I think that I have been very patient with this whole situation and that I have waited long enough for it to take care of itself. I finally got her to agree that I should come in and get me HcG levels tested so I went in this past Monday to get my levels tested and thankfully they were down to a 2 (anything under a 5 means your body is not producing the pregnancy hormone). I asked the nurse what I should do since my cycle was still going and she told me to come in that Wednesday and they would look at it and found what was going on. So we had another ultrasound and found out that there was still stuff that needed to work its way out. So my Dr. gave me 2 options to wait and see how long it takes for it to take care of itself or to have a D&C. Honestly he shouldn't have even asked I mean honestly I don't want to wait any more, it is far too emotional for me. I feel fine physically just not emotionally. So we ended up going in yesterday for a D&C and we now have everything taken care of. We hope. I am feeling a lot better about things in general I feel like I can move on and start enjoying life again instead of always wondering "is this really finished?" I think that I will be looking for a new Doctor however, I didn't have the best experience with that doctors office. I was asked from my doctor when I had my D&C when he had never given me one, I was asked when I last had my HcG levels tested when I hadn't ever had them tested. I think that if this is going to be a problem for me I would like a doctor who takes a little more time with me and not just get me in and get me out as fast as possible. So hopefully we will be able to find a new doctor to take of me and that things will go better next time.

Zeus!

So Zeus has been with out toys the past little while, we bought him some at Christmas and he has already ruined all of them and we haven't gone and gotten any new ones. Zach and I have been playing on a softball team and had brought a softball into the house and Zeus absolutely loves it! He runs around with it in his mouth trying to breath since the ball is just about as big as his little mouth will open! He can hardly breathe with it in, he is starting to sound a little bit like Darth Vader!

We have laminate flooring in our kitchen and when we first got it Zeus had a very hard time walking on it let alone run on it. So we will roll any one of his toys down the walk way and it is so funny to watch him try and run down the laminate and then try to stop but when you add a ball to that list of toys it is even funnier. I love our litte Zeus and am so happy that he is in our lives!

What kind of Dad?

So one of the emails I get is from parents.com and they send me weekly emails with different quizes on the site and this weeks quiz was "What kind of dad will he be?" So we took and the quiz and this is the result!

"Diapers, baths, late-night feedings -- this dad will handle them all like a pro. You can count on him to administer the medicine for baby's first ear infection, and he'll probably want to take Junior to the doctor, as well. In fact, hands-on dads are so involved that they make great primary caregivers (this is the dad you want at home if you're planning to return to work). His parenting style will be based on nurturing, togetherness, and total involvement -- being there for his child will be his first priority."

We will have to wait and see how true this is! Zach just laughed at this and said that he is more then happy and willing to help take care of our little one but as to actually being a stay at home dad he is not so sure!

Anxious

As I said in my last post Zach and I are pretty anxious to get our family going and right now I am feeling like it is never going to happen. I know it will one day I just don't want to wait anymore. I guess that I am just so confused on the whole thing as well, I mean everyone is so different that is what the nurse's keep telling me so there is no way to tell what is normal but I think that I have a pretty good sense of my body and I don't think that this is normal. I just want everything to go back to normal to the way it was before. So tomorrow I have an appointment to meet with my doctor and find out what is going on with my body. About a week after my miscarriage I went in for check up and my DR. said that everything was fine and that as soon as I had my next cycle we would be able to try again. So once I started my next cycle I was totally excited that we would be able to try and that everything was ok. Well now it has been 2 weeks and I still haven't finished that cycle...I mean SERIOUSLY!!! I am so ready for this to be over. I can't help but to think that I should have had my HcG levels tested to make sure that all of the tissue had taken care of it's self so that we would be able to start trying. Anywho...I guess I will update tomorrow with what the DR. has to tell us. We will be keeping our fingers crossed that it is nothing to serious and that everything will be ok . I know that it will be it is just the anticipation until I have that confirmation that I hate.

New adventures!

So I guess that it is about time that I update huh! Wow it has been a long time. Well nothing really all that exciting has happened so that would be why I haven't posted but I did get a new job! I am so excited about this one too. I am going the be the new teller trainer! So all the new tellers that come to work will be trained by me! I absolutely love training new people. I did it a little bit when I was a lead teller but now I get to do it all the time! YEAH!!! It will be a fun job and I can't wait. Right now I am watching all of the training and just taking notes, training a few sections here and there because the girl that does it now is still here but will be leaving in August to go live in Italy (what a horrible life I know) So when she leaves I will be able to do it all on my own. We have a new teller system coming out this year and so that will be a challenge for sure, teaching something that I have never even used myself! It will be an adventure for sure and I can't wait to take it on!

Well things with Zach and I are going good we should be able to try and have another baby again here shortly and so hopefully when that time comes things will work out better for us. I am really looking forward to being pregnant again. I mean I know that I was only pregnant for a few months but I loved every minute of it. (maybe it was because I didn't have any morning sickness hahaha) But I really am excited for that time to come I am a little nervous but it is not going to stop me! I want to be a mommy so bad and I know that Zach wants to be a daddy too. It will happen for us soon enough though. I am sure that I won't be telling anyone for a little while though this time was hard enough telling the family that we had told that we lost the last baby. I guess I shouldn't say anyone we will be telling our immediate family but no one else.

So one Wednesday my sister in law's boyfriend left on his mission and last night she came to my house to talk. It made me remember that same day about 3 years ago for me that Zach had just left and I had a missionary out. It was nice to be able to talk to her about it and tell her that everything will be ok. She seems to be doing well but then the first Friday night alone hasn't hit I am hoping that she will be okay, it will be a long 2 years but yet over before she knows it! They remind me a lot of Zach and I. Which is kind of fun it brings back a lot of memories. Jenny is a strong girl though and I have a feeling that she will make it! I told her that missions are like a year and 15 minutes that is the way it was for me! I guess only time will tell huh!